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I cried, I won't lie

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Dear the members of Sploder,

I was unsuccessful. What happened, was I tried to shoot myself. However, it was only a BB gun. I'm in the hospital right now, on suicide watch. I wish I just died. I don't want to live. I read some comments on that thread, and I felt like complete ****. I wanted to pull my plug. I wanted to do something in the hospital that would kill me or at least harm me more. Drink the fluid? Suffocate myself? Do SOMETHING to make myself suffer more like I deserve? I never meant to hurt anybody. I lied for acceptance. Nobody would ever like the real me. I'm ugly. I'm a horrible person. I'm a ****. I wanted attention. I don't want anything anymore except to just be dead. I haven't made any alts in a very long time. I don't know who tippitytopkek or 4chankun is, I really don't. But whatever. I just can't be trusted, can I? Don't listen to the ****, everybody. She doesn't know what she's talking about, and she's probably pulling this suicide **** out of her ass for attention. Maybe I am. Maybe deep down inside, I do want attention and I'm just denying it. But I did it. I tried. I shot myself in the stomach with a BB gun. Yeah, just for attention. This isn't about Sploder. That's not why I attempted suicide. It's what people felt about me. Not just on Sploder. In real life and other websites I go on, people hated me. I realize now my mistake. I want to be truthful before I try this again, maybe I'll succeed. Me and Kyle are friends. We met in New York about five years ago. When he moved to Colorado, I convinced my parents to move too. It worked. The moving happened about a year ago. He then befriended to people, one was named Ray and the other one was nicknamed Mac. I don't remember Mac's actual name. He hung out with them more than me, and I got jealous. I got stalkerish. It was bad. However, Mac is very tech savvy. He had a feeling I was doing this, and figured it out through Facebook what I was doing to Kyle. When it was discovered I was literally stalking him, he moved to Salt Lake City and I moved to San Francisco. All three of them cut contact with me. Kyle was the only person who really treated me like a human being. Now, I don't know how to contact him. He deleted all of his social media and changed his last name. This is why I said I was Kyle. He moved about two months ago. I was obsessed. But you most likely won't believe that story. I'm sorry I wasted your time. If you read this, cool. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I survived my suicide attempt and well, I got to see what people would think. In real life it was worse. My classmates were happy, and they got **** over when they found out I am still alive. But nonono, it's all not true. None of it is, and I'm a lying ****. I'm a fake. I just wanted acceptance, which is why I acted the way I did. This is really all I have to say, until my next attempt. I'll try it on my birthday, which is February 14th.

                                                                                                                                          Love,
                                                                                                                                                rosebud2

My last day is the 19th

yey